#1 Before I get started you should know…..

Before I get started telling our story and about what we’ve travelled through on this journey, there are a few things you should know. I am a VERY private person. I show people what I want them to see and most of the time it’s not the raw deep in the corner of my heart broken pieces. I pride myself on being a strong independent person that can handle it all and take care of everything and everyone. But let’s be honest, I fall short of that all the time. God has shown me through this, that my life can be spinning in a thousand different directions every single minute but I can still have complete peace in Him. So much peace that I feel like there’s some wrong with me. Crazy right?!? I know God wants me to share this piece of my life. And if I can do it, trust me....anyone can.  God has been dealing with me from the very beginning in small subtle ways and in big in my face ways. I’ve laughed it off for quite awhile and told God “no one wants to hear about my life.” Obviously He had a different plan. The miracles that He has preformed in my life are something that I’ve never experienced or seen before. I am not a special or great person by any means but I hope that my testimony will help encourage others and let them know that God IS still working in the waiting. I don’t know who is going to read this, if anyone at all but I hope whoever does is encouraged knowing they are not alone in their journey. You’re not alone in your struggles and the moments when you lock yourself in the bathroom to cry so one sees or hears, you’re not alone in the aching in your heart that nothing can ease, you’re not alone when you give up but there’s still that tiny little “maybe” covered up deep inside. In the joy and happy you’re not alone. In everything that comes before, during and after. You are still not alone. Please hear me......no matter how hard, don’t lose your faith and hope. It is very hard not to and sometimes it will feel like every bit of it is gone but it’s not. That tiny little speck of hope way down in your soul that you can’t even see or feel will be what carries you through. Trust me, it’s there. It’s what has carried me through a lot of my journey so far. God put it there. He is there in the midst of that tiny speck and He is perfectly navigating your journey and mine.

Love & Blessings,

Amanda