#19 - The Doctor

We are still going through it……. Not knowing what is or is not going to happen with our baby boy. But we are still there for everything.

It was time for him to have his first doctor’s appointment since being with us. I really wanted to make sure that I found the best doctor for him. And I did. This doctor was sent straight from God into our path. I didn’t really know it then, but I would later.

We went to our first appointment to get his shots and everything up to date and a physical of his overall well-being. There were lots of questionnaires to fill out and paperwork. I could already see that he was delayed in some areas. He did not walk and could hardly crawl. He did not speak words and he had a lack of eye contact. I put all of these things` in the paperwork.

I knew there was something special about our baby boy from the first time I laid my eyes on him. It didn’t matter that he maybe delayed in some things or have some medical issues that we would have to care for. In my eyes, he was perfect.

Our doctor was amazing! He immediately referred us to Early Steps to have him assessed. They were very helpful as well. There were hours of assessments with the baby and me. Unfortunately, he did not score very high on their assessments and needed further testing.

We were then sent to John Hopkins All Children’s Hospital for more tests. But even through all of this, I knew our baby boy would be ok. I just wondered if anyone else would ever be able to give him the love and support that I knew I would and could. I worried about this a lot. I wanted to make sure he was given everything he needed no matter what. That was hard not knowing if I would be the one to make sure that would happen or not.

 I knew God would take of him……. But my mind and my heart were still in a state concern for his well-being.

He was assessed by physical therapists, speech therapists, occupational therapists and an audiologist.

At this point, he was diagnosed with developmental delays and speech delays. He needed physical, speech and occupational therapies. It was going to be a lot, but we were here for it. He had physical therapy, speech therapy and occupational therapy, each 3 times per week and Early Steps 1 time a week. He now had a therapy schedule of five days a week.

It was going to be a lot, but I wanted to do this for him. I wanted to be everything he needed.

Give him everything he needed.

I needed him.

My heart needed him.

None of this scared us or made us rethink our decision about wanting to keep him forever. If anything, it made our position even stronger and love even deeper.

He was our perfect baby boy, no matter what.

"Fear not, for I am with you;

Be not dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you,

Yes, I will help you,

I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

Isaiah 41:10

Love & Blessings,

Amanda

*pics of Isaiah - 2020